Sunday is M.'s birthday. I don't know if I can explain the funk that I feel knowing that the day is approaching. Last year at this time I was still feeling pretty jubilant. I was still new to NYC and thought things were going to sort of work out on that end, too. Don't get me wrong, I'm still damn happy. I just am still a bit baffled and numb with the whole thing.

As a sort of therapeutic exercise I made me a little mix CD tonight. I wouldn't ever send it to her, but I thought it turned out pretty good nonetheless. I chose...

"It's A Motherfucker" - The Eels
"Dark Times" - The Boondogs
"I Guess Things Happen That Way" - Raul Malo
"What Led Me To This Town" - The Jayhawks
"How To Fight Loneliness" - Wilco
"The Other End of The Telescope" - Elvis Costello
"Everyone Says 'Hi'" - David Bowie
"Lately I've Let Things Slide" - Nick Lowe
"Not Dark Yet" - Bob Dylan
"Mad World" - Michael Anderson
"These Are Things That Disappear" - Rhett Miller
"Invisible Ink" - Aimee Mann
"Out of Touch" - Lucinda Williams
"New Favorite" - Allison Krauss & Union Station
"It's Time I Tried" - Allison Moorer
"Pouring Water on A Drowning Man" - Elvis Costello
"Gone" - Ben Folds
"I'm Glad I Never" - Lambchop
"Funny How Time Slips Away" - Willie Nelson

You may call it depressing. I call it cathartic.